Golden Arrow

Golden Arrow by failpanda

Joe Browns plus size coat
simplybe.com

ASOS intimate
$12 - asos.fr

Legging
debshops.com

Slouchy boots
avenue.com

Adjustable ring
80spurple.com

Post earrings
fashiontofigure.com



I really got inspired by the panda leggings to do something grey and gold. I fell in love with every item in this set! Must have all the adorable things! I thought that a beautiful gold smokey eye would look lovely with this outfit. Also just having my hair go wild-like would look really good with this outfit too!

ASMR ♥

Growing up I loved listening to my little cousins tell me stories, or hear them flip through the pages of a book, or let them whisper in my ear, or hearing the sounds of color pencils hitting each other. I would get a tingly sensation in my brain and it would send shivers down my spine. Just from listening to the world around me. It felt good, even if I was in a bad mood, doing these things made me happy. I never really knew what to call it until recently.

Autonomous sensory meridian response (ASMR) is a new term for a phenomenon that has been around for a very long time. It is a distinct tingling feeling that can be felt in the head, scalp, back, or sometimes arms and legs. These tingles start in response to our senses or anything that really stimulates our brains. It is a slightly controversial subject because the response is triggered by different things for different people and it can be something that is quite illusive for scientists to study. It is said that ASMR allows the person to feel euphoric and relief from stress. Personally my watching ASMR videos and looking at aesthetically pleasing things allows me to relax and sleep better at night.

I only recently found the community for ASMR on Youtube. At first it made me a little uncomfortable to watch some of the videos. Some of them were quite personal and others were a little strange. At the same time the videos were so intriguing and I was getting that tingling feeling that I remembered from childhood so I couldn't stop watching them. My curiosity kicked in. The Youtubers, who posts these videos, seem to place a deep trust in the person at home watching. In their videos they share some of their favorite triggers (A trigger is the term they use to identify what gives them the ASMR.). I have found such a huge respect for the people in this community. They all seem so supportive of each other and really strive to make the community a place of positivity and they make it so that their viewers feel special.

Here are some of my favorite triggers(so far):

• Hair brush sounds; the sound it makes when running through hair and just the sounds that the bristles make.
• Crinkling of paper or plastic. 
• Color pencils; the sounds they make when hitting each other and the sound they make against paper.
• Soft speaking or whispering.
• Books; sounds of the pages turning, running finger along the edges, the crinkle sounds the paper makes, and when someone reads a story aloud.

I would definitely recommend listening to an ASMR video when you've had a really bad day and need to de-stress or when you would like to fall asleep but you feel like you can't relax. I hope this sheds the light for some of you and my advice? Never be afraid to try something new!

Comic Fever

Comic Fever by failpanda

Cardigan
oldnavy.gap.com

Forever 21 tight
forever21.com

Converse canvas sneaker
jcpenney.com

Sunglasses
80spurple.com

Yellow eyeshadow
sugarpillshop.com

Yellow headband with 4 inch bow - yellow bow headband, yellow baby...
etsy.com

Smitten Sketching Dress
modcloth.com

✿ Cartoon Messenger Bags ✿ from True Blue QT on Storenvy
storenvy.com

Pow Ring by Dolly Cool Comic Sound FX Effects style by DollyCool
etsy.com



Really loving this new outfit! I already have a little bit of this one! So just another outfit to aim for. I told you this Polyvore thing would be bad for my health. I haven't done anything else other than this since I got home from work... I better go make myself dinner.

Cute Nerd Outfit!

Cute Nerd by failpanda

Long sleeve sweater
maurices.com

Plus size tight
modcloth.com

Circle skirt
etsy.com

DC Shoes purple shoes
$110 - zalando.co.uk

Infinity scarve
etsy.com

Bow hair clip
claires.com

Wet Seal fake glasses
wetseal.com

Forever 21 hair accessory
forever21.com

Women's chromatic angel wings backpack free shipping
storenvy.com

Pastel Bear Ring by Dolly House by SweetDollyHouse on Etsy
etsy.com

Polyvore Clipper
artofbeauty.com



Tried out Polyvore for the first time today. Oh dear lord. I'm doomed. It is so much fun and  it helps bring all my wants together in one spot. I'm so happy I could cry. I want all of these things! Just a dream outfit!

2014! Time To Get My Geek Back.

The things I want to see myself do for this new year:

• Get comfortable enough with myself to put myself out there to meet new people!
• Read more comic books:
• Finish "Birds of Prey"
• Read "Fables"
• Blog!
• Play Dungeons & Dragons:
• Keep having fun with my own campaign!
• Have fun doodling and character creating for Tony's campaign!
• Tarot cards:
• Find my deck.
• Memorize cards, positions, and meanings.
• Read for alllll the people!
• Subscribe to Nerdblock (as soon as I can afford it).

This new year is going to be awesome!

HAPPY NEW YEAR~! <3

A Beautiful Fall Wedding.

My Dads' wedding was just gorgeous. The park we were able to do the ceremony was beautiful. The wedding took place in Washington. All of the leaves on the trees in the park were yellow gold and the chilly wind was blowing through the trees and making the leaves fall. The sun was out the whole afternoon. As though it was sunny just for my dads. It was absolutely gorgeous. My dad's have been together forever! So it feels like this happened so long ago, but I'm glad that my dads were able to have a ceremony and that they now get to be recognized by the Government as a couple!

I thought I would share some pictures!

 

 

 

 

My Dads look so happy! It's about time! I love you both!

Happily Married on 11/11/13!

Can't sleep? MUSIC!

I know I haven't written in a while. Things have been so crazy. I haven't been able to sleep very well lately and have noticed me clenching my jaw again. I, however, have been waking up when I'm doing it which is a very welcome change. I woke up at 5:00 AM today and can't get back to sleep. So I decided to listen to Pandora! I feel so much better when I listen to music. I thought I would share how it's going down.

My station that I'm stuck on for life; Here.

This is me right now:

And I dance! Hoping not to wake my roommates who need to wake up soon!

This is for all my lovelies who can't sleep like me.

Dance like no one is watching!

Have your own party!

Don't let the world bring you down!

Even if you feel like a weirdo dancing in the dark!

It's worth it.

<3

Wedding Bells

It's so close! My Dads are getting married! The big day is Nov. 9th! So I need to find a dress for the occasion and I am having a terrible time finding one! I'm debating on pricing, wearability, and fit.

My Dad is going to be in a navy blue and since I was going to be standing on his side, I wanted to be able to wear a navy blue as well. Also I need to be able to save enough money to get to Oregon for the wedding, so I have been looking for cheap options as far as dresses goes.







Found this one at Debs! It's $84.90 and has the perfect colors. I could even wear it with a sweater or jacket. I think the shape would look pretty good on me. I am concerned about the sleeveless-ness of it though. It is also a little more spend-y than I can afford at the moment. It is so pretty though. So it is definitely an option.








So I kept looking and found this adorable dress! It's not nearly as sparkly, but it's really cute! I found it at ModCloth! It's sizes say they run small in some areas but it still comes in my size! I love the shape of it but I'm concerned about the lace edge. I think I may have to manually sew on a ribbon so that the lace doesn't fray. SO MANY CUTE CHOICES, NOT ENOUGH TIME! ACH! Wish me luck on making a decision!

Games I am Loving

So I figured that I may as well start writing about the nerdy things I love. I'm a gamer girl; and yes, we do exist. I grew up with a gamer father and he passed his love of video games to me. I love to play all sorts of games on all sorts of platforms. Lately I've been mostly playing games on my computer but there are so many games right now that I'm obsessed with. So, I'll just mention two this week and go on to talk about some more in the future, 'kay?

The two games I wanted to let you know about are Minecraft and Cube World.

Minecraft
I have been playing Minecraft on and off again for the last several months. I have a lot of friends that play on the same server as me and they keep me coming back! What makes this game fun for me is showing off all the fun and really interesting things that my friends and I create. I'm not much for the battle system in this game. I think the fact that when you die you can lose everything is a slightly harsh reality check.(I fucking hate creepers: Passionately.) I love creating secret areas and exploring underground caverns!

Cubeworld
This game is too cute! I've been playing it with a couple of friends and it is super addictive! The game is made out of tons of colorful cubes! All the mobs are super freaking cute; and to top it off they can be captured as pets! I also love the customization options of your own character. I can create a short, stubby, and adorable character? I AM SO IN!

If you ever get a chance to play or even research these games a bit more, I would totally recommend it!